When I tell you I used to check into hotels JUST to take showers (shout out endless hot water and amazing water pressure/shampoo at the Holiday Inn in Woodbridge!!), I seriously mean I would pull a Karen Walker, go in, take a shower, then a nap, then ANOTHER shower, then GO HOME.

I wouldn’t even spend the night!

And don’t get me started on the shampoo line at the Hilton properties!!! I seriously looked at buying online because it makes my hair look amazing!

My 20’s were wild, y’all.

Now, I’m currently on day 14 of not washing, not because I’m not showering, I’ve showered since then. I just cannot wash my hair.

I wet my hair and start crying.

I pick up my shampoo and can’t catch my breath.

I’m so fucking exhausted – how can my body be so dysregulated?

I think I’m going to just do it through tears tomorrow, before therapy, and then unpack the exhaustion during group.

Wish me luck.